I have always loved the challenge to dig deeper and really discover aspects of myself that I didn’t know were there.
But I’m coming to see more and more that in actual fact, it’s not so much about always digging and trying to uncover things. It’s more about putting the things to one side that are simply blocking my view.
I’d like to share with you how I’ve been inspired through Gangaji and her teachings on this topic:
I love the idea of how realisations can hit us almost instantaneously and that we can waken up to a much deeper understanding of ourselves just by becoming really honest about who we are.
It always strikes home with me how caught up I am in my self constructed persona when I fill in forms about who I am, what I do, etc. When I give descriptions of myself that will portray me in the best possible light. I always take care to choose words that will resonate with those reading it. And I make sure that what I have written sounds good in my own ears. I take this whole presentation of self thing so seriously.
How often have I sat and played with the words, edited and re-edited until I was satisfied that I had created the best possible image of myself that I could muster. Even now, thinking about it, I still find it hard to give a quick description of exactly what I do, of who I am.
It’s time for me to get over worrying about how other people look upon me. And let go of the telling my story. Because it’s the story-telling that keeps me from being in the present. With the story in place, I have to always keep checking that everything matches up to it. Without the story, I can let go and know that everything just is the way it is.
So I’m setting intention to use my props less and less and learn not to lean on my own fabrications.
Where in your life do you lean too heavily on props? Are you aware of who you are underneath all your projections? I’d love you to share your experiences.