I am not my Thoughts – Transcending Identification with the Mind

Recently I have become very entangled with my thoughts and allowed myself to be in a lot of pain.

I was walking through the streets a few days ago talking with someone about something that was occurring at that exact moment in my life. And as I told the story of the event, I could feel how my body was physically reacting.  I felt sickness in my stomach and my head was clouding over.  It felt like all my power was seeping out of me. All the time I was walking briskly which was helping me to breathe through my body deeply.

Transcending the Mind

And as I talked, I began to observe what my mind was fabricating. It was beginning to make up a wild story, embellishing it with fearful elements and totally losing all relevance to what was actually happening. As these thoughts coursed through my mind, I could feel my heart starting to beat faster and a sense of great unease and tension was spreading through me.

But I was totally aware that I was aware of what was going on.

I was fascinated by my awareness of this process and began to speak out loud about it and to it. It was simply something that was running on automatic pilot. It wasn’t me and it wasn’t real. And as I told it that it wasn’t real and therefore didn’t exist, I felt the panic ever so slowly subsiding.

I could sense that I was separate from this fear. That I was separate from my mind. And that all was well no matter how my body was reacting at this moment.

This is the reason why I meditate every day. I allow myself to be in that space between my thoughts, the gap. I allow myself to be that space. And the more I am the state of no-mind, just pure awareness, the more I can transcend my mind when it runs out of control. It”s an ongoing process.

My mind is certainly hugely useful in everyday life when focussed and can be a brilliant tool when used ‘mindfully’ to navigate my way through my dualistic world.  But I don’t need it all the time, running uselessly on repeat.

It is so empowering to get beyond the entrappings of my mind and be that infinite stillness. I am so much more than my mind.

I’d love to hear if you have a regular meditation practice and what benefits you notice from it. Have you had the opportunity to observe your mind running out of control and how have you reacted?

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15 Responses to I am not my Thoughts – Transcending Identification with the Mind

  1. Tony chopper says:

    How long have you been meditating? You’re at quite an advanced stage, relative to the bulk of humanity, I believe.

  2. George says:

    Hello Fiona ,
    If I get you correctly ,all I have to do is stay in conscious awareness of my thoughts and maintain observer witness status alright and further know that am the consciousness where that is aware of these thoughts . I will try not to allow the mind to pull me into it’s thoughts but at same Time I should allow the mind to generate it’s thoughts and momento but I will remain detached and observe these thoughts ebb away as they came

    • Fiona Stolze says:

      Hi George – welcome to my blog. For me it’s vital to see and know what my mind is doing when I am not staying with what is truer and deeper than my smaller self. Just seeing it all for what it is, allowing whatever is happening and keeping my focus on what is true. We can’t make any of the mind’s games go away but by staying deep in our hearts and not giving anything away to the illusion, it ceases to have the same hold on us. I see what appears to be going on, but I don’t identify with it and feed it any more.

  3. James says:

    Hi Fiona
    I really enjoyed reading these posts. I agree with you, in that to try to intellectualize the process we are missing the point, this is not about a game of words, or indeed of who is right or wrong, one can not teach spirituality one can only ‘BE’ spiritual. We can use words to try to describe a state of Being, but the words are only a pointer in the right direction.

    • Fiona Stolze says:

      Hi James – lovely to hear from you. Yes, words are only an approximation and can never fully convey the state of pure Being. Thanks for sharing – and glad you enjoy reading these posts. 🙂

  4. It’s difficult to say with clarity that “you are not your thoughts” as although it is essentially true that you are not anything at all, experientialy “you” only exists as thoughts, so although you can never be “your” thoughts, you essentially are just thoughts.

    Self is born and dies on a moment to moment basis, in the form of thought.
    When there are no thoughts of self and other, or self interest thoughts such as want and like etc, then no-self is the natural state of abiding.

    • Fiona Stolze says:

      Hi James – Thanks so much for commenting. Nice to hear your thoughts. I must admit I don’t get lost in mind games any more. I like to be present to Truth in the now. And respond to that. We can get so lost in intellectualising things and trying to explain concepts that are ultimately mind driven as long as we are having the discussion on the physical plane. And I know that many people out there are not well-versed with the non-duality concepts and so I believe in meeting them where they are. For me it’s about acknowledging what I know to be True in the moment. All great food for thought. 🙂

  5. Gary says:

    Hi Fonia,

    This particular blog resonates with me very much. I am 35 now, and still have strong identification my my mind. I keeps me in contact worry, and prevents me from being happy. I had a crazy childhood, so I’m sure this has something to do with why I am so lost in my thoughts and ego.

    I am sick of not being at peace and moved around with every blow of the wind. This is my mind controlling me ( my thoughts) . I know there is another way , and I desire to live in freedom. I will press on with hopes of finding this peace. I don’t have anyone I can talk with about this important stuff, so at the least I was able to express myself a bit in a honest way. Thank you kindly for your blog..

    PS I have always liked the name Fiona…


    • Fiona Stolze says:

      Hi Gary

      Thanks for stopping by and sharing. You’re right, this is important stuff and we always need someone to talk to and share with about the thoughts we have.

      Just remember to keep coming into the present moment and stilling the mind, even if for short periods. When that happens you are connected with something so much greater than yourself. Be that. And make a conscious choice to listen to that, more and more.

      Remember you are not your mind, not your body, not your emotions. Stay in your heart and be open and expansive and accepting. That alone can begin to shift things hugely. Only be present and move forward. The past does not exist. xx

  6. Bramley says:

    So liberating, to acknowledge that my mind is not me. It allows me to step back in freedom when thought patterns are obsessive and upsetting

    • Fiona Stolze says:

      Yes, that really is freeing, isn’t it? Being able to calmly be the observer turns everything around. Thanks for commenting. 🙂

  7. henrii says:

    Hello Fiona,

    Just this morning upon waking up I realized “I am not my mind or my thoughts”. Because my first thought was I needed to finish a job..but in another level of my mind, doesnt want too (this is just ordinary for most of us). And I suddenly became aware of it, that it seems like something was influencing me that this mind or thoughts is not the “real” me, that my mind is seemingy uncontrollable and thoughts keeps on popping up. So I am just the “witness-observer” of all of this? Probably. I need to meditate more upon this. 🙂

    BTW, I do combine active and passive meditation

    • Fiona Stolze says:

      Thanks for shaing Henrii. Just keep in that observer mode and with time you’ll see it all for what it is. You will identify less and less with you mind and allow the real you to emerge. Observation and bringing awareness to things can shift a lot of energy.

  8. julius says:

    Thank you, very good observation. we need to hear such stories so we don’t ‘think’ we are the only one ‘experiencing’ it. Also it is encouraging to know that there is ‘freedom from this discursive mind. Practice, practice, practice leads to ‘clarity, thank u, julius

    • Fiona Stolze says:

      Thanks for your comments Julius. Yes, it is wonderful to hear that other people are having the same experiences and that the only thing which is standing in our way of truly seeing our magnificence is the working of the mind. A fabulous tool when we harness its power to navigate our daily lives. But it can completely run away with itself and create illusions we allow to run our lives. If we allow it to.

      Seeing beyond the illusion is total freedom. Coming back to centre, stilling the mind. Seeing with clarity. Being.


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