Recent political events have reminded me of our great need to see justice done on any account. And it has also brought to my awareness how our actions of lashing out at others only perpetuate aggression and grief on this planet.
Over the years I have noticed (and I’m only speaking from my perspective) that no matter what happens, the universe always finds a way to balance things out all by itself. Whether or not we get involved. Life is in equilibrium.
It may seem on the surface that this isn’t the case. It doesn’t mean that it’s not happening thought. I know whenever I’ve taken the time to stop and look, I see that the balance is always there in some form or another. A while back I read a beautiful essay by Ralph Waldo Emerson called ‘Compensation‘ in which he addresses exactly this point. I would so recommend you read this piece, even though the language may seem a little difficult to understand.
This is what is true for me. We are unable to take anything away just as we are unable to add anything. All that we need is energetically present and energy cannot be destroyed, which means that everything is in a constant state of transmutation.
In the very moment in which we step in to take action to redress the balance, something else of equal measure is happening to balance it out again.
I appreciate that this is a concept which you may not relate to or which isn’t true for you. And I totally respect that. It could never be my job to try and talk you into seeing things my way. I love that we all have different points of view as we all create our own reality according to what is important to us in our own world.
And as I think about our need for retribution, I remind myself that everything in my universe is only a reflection of me. It’s because I’m not always able to fully see myself and so I have a wonderful system that reflects back to me, moment by moment, exactly what is going on within me. And the more indignant I feel about things happening around me, the higher the probability that it is something that I am denying within me and that I am expressing towards others.
I can remember when I first realised that I was in a large hall of mirrors. How it catapaulted me into a completely new space. One of being unable any longer to cast blame, even if I tried it periodically, as it meant that I was the creator of everything.With every negative word or action I was condemning or judging myself.
This was a double-edged sword for me. On the one hand it woke me up to the fact it was my responsibility to take complete ownership of everything in my life – including every heartbeat, every breath. At the same time it was hugely liberating and empowering to acknowledge that I was in control every step of the way. And there was no going back, ever.
I certainly have a long way to go. I am far from enlightened and sometimes feel like I have returned to square one with no skills in my knapsack. Empty handed but willing to learn and love on the way.
The big lesson for me is, now that I see and understand that no-one else is responsible for anything in my life, not to beat myself up for any perceived mess I find myself in. It’s about allowing, giving myself permission to be, do and have what I dream of.
POSTSCRIPT: Here are some afterthoughts I have had to the above. For me there’s no such thing as partially taking responsibility for my life. I either do it or I don’t, not just picking out the bits that are easy to work with and passing on the rest. An inner world of turmoil reflects an outer world of turmoil and vice versa. And so with regards to making a change in this world, I think it can be done one person at a time. That person is me. Everything is energy and so by taking complete responsibility for my thoughts and emotions and the energy that I radiate into my outer world, this will dictate the experience I have of my life. If we each only start with ourselves, imagine what a difference that could make.
I have taken the time to reply to your comments and really welcome everyone sharing. Thank you for bringing this discussion alive.
How do you feel about being completely responsible for absolutely everything in your life all the time? Or isn’t it something you have contemplated?